HAPPY MOMENTS♥

Monday, October 19, 2015. Y

My Beloved♥

For a moment I'm asking him to FaceTime n we had a chat.

Mmmm everything seem alright after that

But I hope it can maintain well.

Note for myself:

- He put down his self study time to FaceTime you.

- His studies started to get busy.

- he lack of Time due to need to wash clothes n also prepare dinner etc

- he loves you.

i ♥ TAN ZHEN YOU!
1:34 PM

Thursday, October 15, 2015. Y

My Beloved♥

Sometimes im wonder if he really appreciate it or just becos I say how much I did ; he den say Thankyou to me. 😔

This morning he received my postcard tat I mailed out from Bangkok.

His first sentence was "next time cover it cos its a share letter box, everyone can see"

Instead of saying something sweet like; thanks darling; I'm touched etc.

And tell me that i shld put in the letter.

Sigh. Can't you appreciate the effort I made ? Do you think I at BKK got time to find letter ? Just wanna send you a little surprise greeting at a very last min at airport. Is kinda rush that time u know.

Although in the end u told me you like it; but the whole atmosphere you already spoilt it.

Everytime say I spoil the whole atmosphere; you also spoil it, is just that I don't wanna say much.

Writing a postcard isn't it special n just let other ppl jealous of you ?

Sigh .

And becos of helping him to change UK money at a better rate; I need to specially take half day leave to do his errand.

After changing the money; debate w the money changer for better rate; I'm happy that I did some "good job" by helping him save at least $50.

So I took a photo of the receipt telling him I got a better rate;

His reply was nothing. Not even a Thankyou or sweet greetings.

I need some pamper too. 😔

Although I wish to hear was "darling you the best!" "Thanks for Take up ur time to do errand for me" ;

But at least a "Thankyou my dear"

I'm fine w it.

But all I get was nothing.

Told him abt these thru FaceTime; I not sure if he feel guilty or what or Just trying to make me happy, keep on say Thankyou n muacks n iloveyou etc.

Sometimes, I don't wish everytime I say you den do some action can?

Pls be auto? Pls?

难道我们的honeymoon period 已经没有了？😔😔😔

i ♥ TAN ZHEN YOU!
11:29 AM

Sunday, October 11, 2015. Y

My Beloved♥

"Experience the diff culture over there."

Experience the culture has different type but not just drinking right?

Can experience something healthy ?

Which gf would really like her long distance BF (2-3times) weekly go drink till so late?

Drink until sick? Recovery not yet even 2 weeks; drink again?

Why not we change our position n think?

Mmmm..

Sigh maybe 我的思想太保守?

Although you everytime tell me what u doing etc;

You make me think that you having/ experience something really diff compare to Singapore by drinking?

Not like seeing how ppl relaxing life/ enjoy the scenery etc? Just some healthier way?

Sometimes I feel;

I'm trying to climb to your level yet you didn't wait for me but you just wanna climb higher to experience diff things.

M I thinking too much?

Only think of you & yourself.

You still loving yourself more. Although you trying not to.

That's how I feel it now.

I know u know ur limit; but the limit is for yourself; not included me.

Hopefully these drinking period will end soon enough.

I will just close one eye; or maybe two. Continue talking abt it; will lead to Quarrel

And I don't think it will benefit me in any way😔

i ♥ TAN ZHEN YOU!
11:49 PM

Saturday, September 26, 2015. Y

My Beloved♥

Letting you use my study table; doesn't mean it's yours.

Can't you keep your things back to your room or even clear up the mess you done ? Sigh.

Not confirm if Father coming back sleep; just took my blanket away cos he wanna use? Wth seriously?

Sister slept early in my room; n my room light is not off... She expect me to off it; (erm. HELLO! Can't you off yourself!!!)

I said "later" cos I'm watching tv.

If she can't wait; can't you get up n off it yourself?! Lazy!!

Despite of my mother scolding her; she said me instead ? Wtf?! My mother said "off for her will die meh!"

So now is my fault again?!!! Why are u being so bias! Everytime! WHY!!

Last time I ask one of you all help me off the light; u guys say I lazy. Wtf seriously!!!

Aren't you guys lazy also?! Sigh!

I really don't have a good point to say abt ?!!

Sometimes I really tired !

Just wanna have a break from all those nasty mouth...

i ♥ TAN ZHEN YOU!
11:50 PM

Tuesday, September 8, 2015. Y

My Beloved♥

The day when my dearest cook carbonara pasta (from strach) just for me 😍😍

Thankyou ❤️

I will miss you badly when you gone ! 😣

i ♥ TAN ZHEN YOU!
5:09 PM

Wednesday, June 17, 2015. Y

My Beloved♥

It's true.

i ♥ TAN ZHEN YOU!
11:45 PM

Sunday, May 31, 2015. Y

My Beloved♥

Is not about them who influence me.

It's you.

1. We have not been seeing each other for weeks; yet not asking me just a date/ meal? Not just some concern text? (Did I asked for too much?) All you can say is "concentrate on your exam" blah blah blah! ... Call you and ask you why nev msg me the whole day but msg in group chat. You said you wan me to concentrate n study so dun wan to disturb me. To me is like wtf? Go out do some errand also nev tell me. All you say you got a lot of things to do n tired. Fuck? I'm your gf; I nev ask you keep on msg me or wat; just fork out some seconds/minutes to call/text me what u do/go today also tired? All you concern only yourself tired ?

Think you used to it le right. Cos I'm always soft to you. I need some attention you know ?

I lost your attention during your exam; I can understand; but u already finished? Sigh can you be the one who can be understanding BF ? And ask yourself "why I being like this?"

2. And also regarding your solo trip w that lady. If MINDEF never reject your leave; will you really go w her? You keep on say you and her nothing happen but it's hurts me a lot ? Is not that I don't trust you. Is you never concern about my feeling. Only you and yourself.

3. Cos you not ready. 你让我动摇。

Been tgt so many years yet you not ready? Even we tgt in the next few years also not ready?

Labels: Heart Broken~

i ♥ TAN ZHEN YOU!
5:33 PM

Friday, May 29, 2015. Y

My Beloved♥

1 word.

Speechless.

Labels: Heart Broken~, Reality

i ♥ TAN ZHEN YOU!
11:47 PM

Tuesday, May 26, 2015. Y

My Beloved♥

Having an excuse that this coming Friday you got checkup & I can go w u (meetup) cos I really miss you.

But u asked me to endure n concentrate on exam.

HELLO!

We have not been seeing each other for like 2-3weeks? (Going to be 4weeks till my exam) N the last meetup is not having date tgt but study study study 😔

You n your thinking is tat exam is impt; concentrate more. Nothing more ?

(Does couples out there doing the same w/o seeing each other more than 2-3weeks?)

Why cant you think of an angle?

In order for me to study hard;

give me a break for one day (half day to be exact) just to meetup w you.

你是我的能量/动力？ Sigh.

Even how busy for my exam;

Even how I really miss you;

I will find a way to meet up w you (to make you feel secured n loved even how busy I am) for JUST A DAY n MAKEUP my studies the following day?

Isn't that what Couples do?

But why not you? 😓

Yah, I know it's your final exam.

I can understand.

Been less msg n call each other.

All I wanna or Dying to hear from you is ...

"I miss you" ; "thanks for being understanding"; or something sweet?

Sigh. Am I not being understanding or are you being selfish/ being self center (love you n yourself ).

PS:

Love; trust; understanding

These words NOT just place in your heart will do.

You need to show out and let other party feel it.

That's more important.

Labels: **Missing U **, Heart Broken~, Reality

i ♥ TAN ZHEN YOU!
10:55 PM

Wednesday, May 20, 2015. Y

My Beloved♥

Complain or said out doesn't solve any problem.

But worsten it.

Your reply was:

"why complain? You should change/ upgrade yourself. Do something that I won't .. ..... "

Which actually not I wanna hear from you.

Sometimes I'm wondering;

Why not you change an angle dun look down on me?

Just b cos u highly educated; n I'm not.

So u feel confident in yourself den me? You trust yourself den me.

(When I'm feel confident in myself; you break my confident😔)

Although my eng is F9; but I have 8yrs experience in writing.

Dun base on my F9 can? 😔

I don't mind other ppl look down on me; but not you. Sigh

Idk how to express it;

All I complain just to let you know;

hoping you can change an angle dun look down on me or change ur attitude towards me; and trust me when I'm really confidence in something.

But idk why everytime it turn out to be my fault again 😔

I tot I was a simple girl;

but it's seem that I'm not. 😔

Lesson learnt:

don't complain anything to him in future;

Once you complain/ said out your unhappy; he won't comfort you; he will just say what can you do? Change ? Etc? N quarrel begin. 😪

Don't wanna quarrel ?

DEN DONT COMPLAIN!

Labels: Heart Broken~, Reality

i ♥ TAN ZHEN YOU!
10:53 PM

. Y

My Beloved♥

After ytd some sort of "argument".

I tot he won't 让步；but this time he seem to be different.

He don't wish me to unhappy; he dun wanna go for the trip w the girl.

Kinda surprise he did that.

But sigh! I let him chase his dream despite of he go on a trip w the girl 😪

ONLY THIS TIME!

I'm kinda disappointed when he said I can't make it if I climb mountain w him.

Sigh.

But overall.

This is the last time.

Hopefully I can endure during his SOLO trip w her 😔

Labels: Angry like shit, Heart Broken~, Reality

i ♥ TAN ZHEN YOU!
6:06 PM

Tuesday, May 19, 2015. Y

My Beloved♥

Why can't you include me inside your wishing/ to do list?

Always is "you" & "your to do list".

As usual; you only think for your ownself.

Just because I'm poor at fitness;

you think I won't make it.

Why cant you think of another angle?

Let me experience something different?

Wanna experience tgt w me although I'm weak?

No?

Is not that I dont trust you.

Don't you find weird that you go w a girl only? No?

It's make me uncomfortable.

Yah I'm a weak gf.

If everytime continue like this;

den i will ALWAYS be a stay home girl.

W no adventure; n have a boring life. Always.

Just be cos she got experience in climbing mountain etc.

So I think I'm the one who thinking so much !

Always think wanna go here here here or do what what what WITH YOU!

Added you in my list. Sigh.

I would rather be a SELFISH girlfriend; rather than a understanding n supportive girlfriend.

Reality hurts.

单纯的我！

傻必！

Labels: -My Problems-, Heart Broken~, Reality

i ♥ TAN ZHEN YOU!
1:27 PM

Monday, May 18, 2015. Y

My Beloved♥

Dream n dream n dream again 😖

This time I dream that :

I saw a lot of fb post ppl getting their BTO flats n propose etc.

And so I asked/ told him.

He told me was.. ....

"I would wanna settle down with you but I wanna slow it down"

After I heard "slow it down" ; I woke up from my dream or Shld I say nightmares.

In reality; wat will he say to me.

I'm really curious..

Wanna asked but I scared the ans is not I wanna hear ~~

Mmmmmmmm.

i ♥ TAN ZHEN YOU!
1:47 PM

Wednesday, February 25, 2015. Y

My Beloved♥

My darling got back his result.

And as expected his result is good!

骄傲❤️

Labels: I'm So Proud :)

i ♥ TAN ZHEN YOU!
11:49 PM

Sunday, February 15, 2015. Y

My Beloved♥

Today is Valentines!

Tried to make something special n simple thing this year.

So I tried baking rainbow cookies w heart after seeing the YouTube video post on fb.

Seem to looks easy but when baking,

it really tough than it looks.

(Took me few hrs baking)

But overall it's a "so-called success".

And of cos remaining doughs will "anyhow" bake due to the unwanted shape.

Conclusion: in order to get the shape (hearts) that you want, dun throw the remaining doughs, use it n do other shapes.

Don't waste food.

********************************

Passed him the cookies, he didn't seem to react anything thru. =(

Maybe is already midnight 3am n he tired ba.

Alright ~~~~

Not gg to do mushy thing again.

I guess :|

His reaction not I expect thru.

But I still love him. 😬

We watched a midnight movie

"kingsmen".

It's nice ! Recommended!

Beside making cookie, bought a cushion & make a simple card.

I believe the simple card he haven open it till now lo. I know his pattern. :|

i ♥ TAN ZHEN YOU!
9:31 PM

Thursday, January 29, 2015. Y

My Beloved♥

Finally!! ❤️

I can meet him after 2 weeks due to his examination! 😅

Really kinda miss him MUCH!

N in the end we 误打误撞, went to "Chicken Up" at Tampines for dinner as

I've been wanting to eat it since few months ago cos a lot of ppl posting the foods on Instagram 😬

Thanks to darling 迁就me!

I finally got the chance!!

But.. ... ... When we tried it.

Kind of...... .. Cannot say disappointed.

But is OVERPRICE I think.

We ordered:

- $12 Ganjang chicken wings (4pcs)

The first few bites it's taste sweet n nice, but after eating the 2nd pcs, I feel "ok lor" normal chicken to us.

-$18 spicy up (half chicken)

It's really spice us up! Spicy than KFC.

But the spicy part is only the skin.

- $20 melon bingsoo

It's nice n unique.

But 2 person eat for a dessert after a meal is too much.

Recommend for 3-4paxs.

Melon is really overprice to me.

I think I will only try it once n last of all.

i ♥ TAN ZHEN YOU!
1:00 AM

Friday, January 2, 2015. Y

My Beloved♥

农历生日快乐11月12日

Happy Birthday to my dearest darling once again

♥♥♥♥♥♥

Due to december bought a lousy cake; this time i DIY steamcake for his birthday =)

At least he can eat as a snack when studying

Hopefully he like it although he no expression everytime =(

LOVE YOU!

i ♥ TAN ZHEN YOU!
10:00 PM

Tuesday, December 9, 2014. Y

My Beloved♥

Simple birthday celebration for 25y/o macho man ! ♥

he is busying w his upcoming FYP & examination

so this year we didnt go out & celebrate but cook some simple dishes

Onion Egg; Veg & salted egg pork chop

And i really regret for not going to Tampines1 to buy a nice & lovely cake for him

due to lack of time (cooking the dishes); & laziness.

So I bought at my hse nearby bakery shop =(

Cos his family bought a strawberry yogurt ice cream for him. you see the photo you can compare it LOL!

& only his mother want to eat my cake; i think she see my cake very pity.

Thankyou auntie!

& i force ahyou to eat too.

idk the rest of the cake did he really eat finish or throw away =/

My lesson learnt: Dont be lazy; if not you will regret!

Wish my dearest all the best in watever you do! Jiayou!

Labels: Regretted in life, Sweet moments

i ♥ TAN ZHEN YOU!
11:00 PM

Friday, October 31, 2014. Y

My Beloved♥

OMG!
This Morning I had a 又爱又恨的 dream..
Wanted to tell him about it; but scared that I'm stressing him.

************
I dreamed that idk why i with a guy; he suddenly hold onto my waist & my heart went melt & back to "sweet lovely r/s" feeling.

On the other hand i know that im doing this is wrong as i got zy as my bf.
But the feeling that i felt at that time of point is so sweet like I've not been having this moment.

and also dreamed that zy suddenly proposed (knee down) to me w a ring.
(Ring design/Pattern is exactly the same that he draw to me on MSN few yrs back)

At the moment; I feel so touched cos didn't expect he will do that.
& so i feel bad in myself as early on i with another guy ...

And so on so on.. ... . ..... IM AWAKE from the dream.

************
Awwww ~ guess i cant wait for myself for being propose & marry off.
And also im not a unfaithful girl alright =.="
is just a dream...

Sometimes im thinking if me & him will really be husband & wife one day?
Sometimes i do think that if one day i not mature enough; not using more brain (which he hoping for it); the day sure wont happen =(

Nowadays or should i say THIS year; too MANY of them keep asking me:
- when you getting married/ when is your turn?
- together so long why dun wanna get a HDB?
- get HDB already?
- Go & get HDB since it need to take 3 yrs BTO

all these qns make me 不知所措 & stress up ~
Is not that i dun wan O.K.?!
Also must see HIM right.. =.="

女人的保存期快要过期咯~
老了，没魅力咯~

Labels: -My Problems-

i ♥ TAN ZHEN YOU!
11:48 AM

Sunday, October 26, 2014. Y

My Beloved♥

Attended darling's sister wedding at One Degree Marine, Sentosa

Yesterday.

Indeed, Bride is always beautiful & lovely on a wedding day.