HAPPY MOMENTS♥

Tuesday, May 19, 2015. Y

My Beloved♥

Why can't you include me inside your wishing/ to do list?

Always is "you" & "your to do list".

As usual; you only think for your ownself.

Just because I'm poor at fitness;

you think I won't make it.

Why cant you think of another angle?

Let me experience something different?

Wanna experience tgt w me although I'm weak?

No?

Is not that I dont trust you.

Don't you find weird that you go w a girl only? No?

It's make me uncomfortable.

Yah I'm a weak gf.

If everytime continue like this;

den i will ALWAYS be a stay home girl.

W no adventure; n have a boring life. Always.

Just be cos she got experience in climbing mountain etc.

So I think I'm the one who thinking so much !

Always think wanna go here here here or do what what what WITH YOU!

Added you in my list. Sigh.

I would rather be a SELFISH girlfriend; rather than a understanding n supportive girlfriend.

Reality hurts.

单纯的我！

傻必！

Labels: -My Problems-, Heart Broken~, Reality

i ♥ TAN ZHEN YOU!
1:27 PM

Friday, October 31, 2014. Y

My Beloved♥

OMG!
This Morning I had a 又爱又恨的 dream..
Wanted to tell him about it; but scared that I'm stressing him.

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I dreamed that idk why i with a guy; he suddenly hold onto my waist & my heart went melt & back to "sweet lovely r/s" feeling.

On the other hand i know that im doing this is wrong as i got zy as my bf.
But the feeling that i felt at that time of point is so sweet like I've not been having this moment.

and also dreamed that zy suddenly proposed (knee down) to me w a ring.
(Ring design/Pattern is exactly the same that he draw to me on MSN few yrs back)

At the moment; I feel so touched cos didn't expect he will do that.
& so i feel bad in myself as early on i with another guy ...

And so on so on.. ... . ..... IM AWAKE from the dream.

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Awwww ~ guess i cant wait for myself for being propose & marry off.
And also im not a unfaithful girl alright =.="
is just a dream...

Sometimes im thinking if me & him will really be husband & wife one day?
Sometimes i do think that if one day i not mature enough; not using more brain (which he hoping for it); the day sure wont happen =(

Nowadays or should i say THIS year; too MANY of them keep asking me:
- when you getting married/ when is your turn?
- together so long why dun wanna get a HDB?
- get HDB already?
- Go & get HDB since it need to take 3 yrs BTO

all these qns make me 不知所措 & stress up ~
Is not that i dun wan O.K.?!
Also must see HIM right.. =.="

女人的保存期快要过期咯~
老了，没魅力咯~

Labels: -My Problems-

i ♥ TAN ZHEN YOU!
11:48 AM

Thursday, September 30, 2010. Y

My Beloved♥

My head is aching under office air con.. TOO COLD!
I SMS told you that I’m cold. Plus my head very pain.
You replied; why head pain?.
& I replied; “I think is frozen?! Numb Numb feeling. Like coconut inside empty e :’( or I kana brain cancer?”

& you called me said that I either siao or my brain got something wrong.

Sigh!
But I told you I really head pain & very numb.
You told me to go see doctor.
I said no. (cos I’m in the office, cannot anyhow time off)
You frustrated & told me what you can do. & in future any pain or etc don’t tell you.

After hearing your words, & I said goodbye to you on the phone.
YET, you don’t bother me & even say goodbye to me!

My heart is bleeding, it’s hurt!
What do you mean by that?
In future I got any pain I don’t tell you? Is this what a bf should say?
What you can do? A lot! I need your concern not by saying go see doctor, this few simple words.

I really head pain like hell yet you told me this hurtful word.
I’m disappointed in you.

Last time you scold me for not concerning you when u sick/ pain etc.
Now its apply the same. But a little bit different is that I never even scold you at all.
Want blame jiu blame myself. Sigh!

Just feel that this relationship is getting blender & blender..

I’m bored. I disturb you.
I called you; every time you played game.
I didn’t blame you for playing game.
All I need is your attention! Your accompany! Your attitude to mi!

Is that Difficult? sigh!

Right now, i feeling that mi to you, I just...

nothing!

Labels: -My Problems-, Heart Broken~

i ♥ TAN ZHEN YOU!
3:56 PM

Monday, September 27, 2010. Y

My Beloved♥

Nowadays my feeling is like lonely & weird.
Why am I feeling like this?
I hate this feeling!

When I’m bored I disturb him.
He feels irritated.
Seem like asking me don’t disturb him

Make me feel useless.
Seem like I really nothing better to do
You occupy 80% of my life

I want to have a great chat with him
But there’ no topic to talk about
We don’t even have the same common.
Speechless!

Thinking when days passes, months passes, what will we be?
I really can’t imagine it

Labels: -My Problems-

i ♥ TAN ZHEN YOU!
2:54 PM

Sunday, September 19, 2010. Y

My Beloved♥

i now at my dad new factory! @ AMK area =)
Its already 19th Sept 2010; 1 AM in the morning !

my dad take over this factory on 15th Sept 2010; which i open my blog on the same day !

not applicable in same year lol - 15th Sept 2008 =)
(no link!)

My dad b boss AGAIN :)

you guys will sure curious what the meaning of "AGAIN"?

Last time when i'm secondary times, my dad & his friend open an company together & do construction business...

I think after years, they having an conflicts & its close down !

so this time, my dad think that b a boss himself, there will be no conflict or policies etc..

he had submitted the resigned to his currently boss..

& his last day will be on 30th Sept 2010..

i was happy & worried for him..

Happy is because he has set his own business himself ! in future he wont be so "xinku"

worried is because will he have an satisfied sales monthly? if not;

the factory will closed down anymin...

i not pouring him a cold water.. but that the fact...

I now looking at him cutting, washing & packing the factory...

& nowadays go home 2AM++ & wake up 8AM for his job...

i thinking... ... he getting old~

this year he 44years old.. he can run, carry heavy things etc etc..

but after 5 to 10 years ??

Its make life difficult ~

As a daughter, i hope i can do something for him but there's nothing !

Sigh! hoping this 5 years i quickly get my cert & find a job that earn $3.5K monthly?

now currently i can help is to intro ppl to give him business!

How hope i can find a part time job on weekends!

a little income make a big difference!

Labels: -My Problems-, LiiM

i ♥ TAN ZHEN YOU!
1:07 AM

Thursday, August 26, 2010. Y

My Beloved♥

Darling has been driving his small car car for the past 3 weeks!
He become more n more skilled!
Make me so envy & jealous!

Envy is becos he got such a NICE brother who lends him a car for Months @ FOC!
Except for topping up petrol & cash card.
Can you ever imagine how great that is?
O my!

How would I wish I got this kind of brother treat me well enough?
*which I think is impossible (-.-)

Jealous is becos darling driving skill is better den mi! humph!
So angry & sad.. my potential seem bad!
Last time I was better den mi.. now is OPPOSITE!
Sian!
Sigh!

Darling, i will win you one day! BLEAH!

Labels: -My Problems-

i ♥ TAN ZHEN YOU!
11:10 AM

Wednesday, August 18, 2010. Y

My Beloved♥

i craving for starbucks Coffee!

~~when can i drink?~~

Labels: -My Problems-

i ♥ TAN ZHEN YOU!
11:54 AM

Friday, July 16, 2010. Y

My Beloved♥

I wanted to say sorry in MSN that I’m in wrong.
But you sure will ask have I know my mistake or sorry for?

To mi, my feeling; its just cant avoid, if I feel miserable or jealous.
You told me to control. I wish I could, but feeling can really control.

If feeling really can really control, that not call “feeling” at all.

In a relationship what is jealous?
You told me that jealous is when you dun trust your beloved.
I disagree to your saying.
I trust you yet I still got jealousy, I dunno why

Please dun come & ask why I have this jealousy,
Is just cant being explainable?

& please dun impatient & ask me why can’t be explainable.
Is just my feeling feel not right?

Being saying a lot of thing, & you just ask me one thing.
Do I really love you or do I just need a company that all?
I hate you when u saying this kind of stupid thing whenever we quarrel.
Every time you said this, you are hurting my heart badly! Totally HURT BADLY!

We being together almost 2 years & yet you come & ask this question?
These 2 years we being together, you really feel that I just need a company that all?
Is this what you really think about this relationship?

I said in a moody tone last night is not I want either.
After all, I didn’t stop you from going out with your friends after your driving lesson
When I don’t really like you to go find your friends.

You told me that when you love her/him, let him/her happy; do what they like.
Yeah I agree so I didn’t stop you going to meet your friends. Is just that my tone some kind of moody.
Blame me again? You tot I really want that stupid tone?
Don’t expect me to give a happy tone to you when I really dun like.
I tried not to act dislike face & tone in front of you. I TRIED! & I really tried!
I tried very hard that make my feeling more miserable & uncomfortable to act in front of you
Yet you say I never tried. Maybe you’re right when you really never feel how I feel that time.
In order to make you happy; I felt miserable in my heart that you don really feel it.
That’s what really called “LOVE”?

Is just a feeling that shows what I am?
Do you really think that feeling is really can be control as easy as you think?
Or maybe you haven met this kind of problem before.

Or could I say you have change?
After you back from china, you have a big group of new friends.
I happy for you.

But this group of friends seem different from Yvette they all.
More gathering; more outing than before.
Which I not really comfortable or use to it with.

Don’t ever ask me why I not comfortable with.

Last time I remember that I do not really like Yvette until I really meet her in person.
She a nice & friendly girl.
From then on, I dun really mind you & Yvette they all together.
Maybe I meet her & have a few chats.

It would be glad that you intro your friend to me so I wont have that kind of feeling
But you said you would like your own privacy.
This word making me hurts!
In a relationship still need privacy? I really wonder?

Maybe you won’t feel it this way as my friends you all know.
Unlike me.

Not saying that after you come back to china you treat me unwell or something.
You like before; treating me nice & well, just then your temper to me seems impatient.
Maybe your temper impatient due to my manners & attitude way of saying.
But I tried not to make your angry or frustrate.

Is like more gathering is not like you as before.
Make me feel that I seem unimportant.
That’s how I feel when you think you dun.

Last evening when we met up, I asked you Saturday where you n your group of friends will be going.
You said maybe catch a movie.
& I asked is it “inception” movie.
I even asked if they watch “inception” how?
You asked me why I asked you.
I tot of asking you to watch this Sunday as I got the tickets.
You just told me to watch other movies instead.
Which make me think that you want to watch with them?

Last time also have these cases.
You watched with your friend the movie that I would like to watch with you.
I also never say anything; but my feeling is disappointed.
Can you ever feel it?

You said that last time I went out with ACCA friend, you never say anything.
Do you know why?
Because you got dota to accompany you to kill time.
Me? Nothing?

& maybe you would say that that’s my problem?
Ask me to go find things to do?

I admit that I very independent in you.
Is it wrong to independent in you?
I didn’t see any reason is wrong when comes to relationship.

Now I know what the meaning of “爱情是自私的”
& you properly will say that there’s no such thing, is my own feeling, own problem causes.

Maybe selfish is my nickname.
Maybe jealousy is my surname.

Maybe your saying is reasonable. I can’t beatable in your saying of reason.
But do you really understand girls well?
Understand girls feeling & emotion is what they want.
Crying is not really girls like.
Quarrel is not really girls like.

Crying in a corner badly when I can’t say or explain my feeling without letting you know.
Crying in front of you on the phone, you told me can I stop crying.
Crying can’t stoppable & not I wan either.
I tried very hard not to cry when talking on the phone.
I tried not to cry, in the end make my nose & eye uncomfortable, it’s awful!

Now, I don’t know how to talk or say to you. I’m speechless.
I know that I sure will cry badly.
& I know that it’s my fault again & again & again.
& I sure will say I really don’t know why I will feel this way

When can I stop making this “fault”?
You want me to promise you?
I can’t, I scare it will happen again.

& what really can I do with it?
I really don’t know!

& my answer will make you frustrate again.
Is not that I want to make you frustrate,
Is that; I really don’t know!

Labels: -My Problems-, Heart Broken~

i ♥ TAN ZHEN YOU!
3:00 PM

Monday, June 14, 2010. Y

My Beloved♥

Today is the last day of IT Fair.

My family went there to take a look of desktop..
In the end we bought Acer Destop @ S$1,249.oo

Is kind of expensive that its hurts my heart! But if this time buy a cheapo one, sure will spolit within a year...

although is my dad paid, mi n my sis intend to pay him back as we will be using more often...

Additional this Month, my colleague wedding, need to bao hongbao/ Just bought a 500GB Harddisk @ S$119.90...

Sigh! Money again!!
In this world, need money to survive!!
i going to broke soon! my ACCA lessons/ Driving/desktop...
All need money!!

i intend to ask my boss to increase my pay by $200 this year end??
Seriously speaking, i only earn S$1550 per month inclusive CPF...
it not enough use @ all.. pay this & that.. seem like i paying debts all the times..

How i hope to buy thing that i really wish to have w/o looking at the price tag...
when will it be happen? after my death??..

i think i should do a part time job?.. but wat can i work?.. hmm..
Sigh! this world is so relvance !!!

Labels: -My Problems-

i ♥ TAN ZHEN YOU!
1:44 AM